I feel like I just woke up. I don't know where I've been or what I've been doing for the past couple months but for some reason this past week I feel more alive and alert. I feel like Bella in New Moon when she starts living her life again and stops being so depressed. I've been so self-absorbed and selfish the past couple months and that makes me sick. I'm glad to be back in this thing they call life and to be actually paying attention to what's going on around me.